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PART TWO
Preparation and Anointing
Chapter
17
Special Anointings
And
he poured some of the
anointing oil on Aaron’s head and anointed
him, to sanctify him.
--Leviticus
8:12
THIS
SECOND PART of the book reveals how the Lord worked in my life and prepared my
body to dance and serve Him after He gave me a vision for this book. Since
Monday, May 27, 1996, He has visited with me regularly. He has taken me in my
transformed body to a beach on earth every Monday morning.
This beautiful beach, which is clearly described in the previous sections of
this book, is a very special place to the Lord. On May 27, 1996, He promised me
He would take me to the beach every Monday, and He has been completely faithful
to this promise, never missing these weekly visits.
Before doing the preparatory work in my body, the Lord visited me every morning.
This began on July 11, 1996. He anointed me, and He began to prepare me for the
work He has called me to do. He explained that until all the preparatory work
was completed, the book could not be published. He clearly showed me that He
wanted me to keep a record of all the work He is doing in me so it could be
included in the book.
In addition, the Lord has worked with me during the early evening hours. In
fact, He hardly ever works with me in the mornings any more. At first, the
nightly visits would occur late at night, around 10 P.M. or 11 P.M. Then He
started appearing in the early evening hours. Because of this, He told me to
start going to bed early each evening.
As I prepared for bed, I found that my body would begin to shake with the Lord’s
power around 8:00 P.M. each evening. During the periods of shaking I would read
my Bible and pray. Then, as I would get into bed, my body would undergo
tremendous and violent shaking for five or ten minutes. In the process, my
stomach would tighten, and I would experience spasms in the abdominal region.
All of this happens each evening before the Lord’s visit to my room. The
wonderful anointing of the Holy Spirit falls upon me as well. During these
marvelous visits, the Lord speaks directly and personally to me. Then He begins
the preparatory work in my body. When this happens, I have no control over my
body for a period of two to four hours. The Lord is with me the entire time.
Often He talks with me while my body is shaking violently. Sometimes He tells me
what He is going to do next, and when He senses that my heart is complaining
about His plan, He rebukes me by commanding, “Obey Me!”
He is always careful to reiterate His expectations and plans. Sometimes this
makes me weary, and I feel as if I can’t take any more, but He knows my heart’s
desire is to please Him in all that I do so, I keep on trusting Him.
When these evening sessions first began, I could see the faces of demons all
over the room. Though they were gross and intimidating, I did not fear them. I
would see them flying behind the Lord’s head, but when I rebuked them, they
instantly departed.
Through this process I believe the Lord was teaching me how to protect myself. I
also believe the Lord lets me see His presence the whole time while He is doing
His work so I will learn to focus on Him alone at all times.
He has told me many times that I must focus on Him and His work only. For this
reason, He had me finish the book some time ago and put it away until He was
ready for it to be released. In the meantime, He wanted me to learn to
concentrate on Him and on the preparatory work He is doing in my life.
Completing the book was a very large burden to me, but with God and my husband’s
help, along with the assistance of a Spirit-filled writer, the major portion of
the writing project was completed sometime in February 1997.
SPIRITUAL VISIONS
He also has given me visions of many other natural and spiritual phenomena. Each
vision would be shown to me repeatedly. He also showed me a hailstone as big as
half a door falling from heaven. This vision came in the form of a dream.
Anything the Lord shows me, I can never forget.
In fact, the visions were so multitudinous and varied that they are truly
uncountable. The Lord would take my transformed body to the ocean, and He would
hold my hand as we would walk on the ocean. What a sense of joy that gave to
me--walking and talking with the Lord on top of the sea! Often, I would respond
with laughter.
These visits to the shore were very exciting. It was as if I had become a little
child--the Lord and I would even race to see who could run the fastest. These
marvelous experiences occurred when the Lord took me to the beach, and they were
possible only because the Lord had transformed my body through the intriguing
body-work He does to prepare me for the ministry He has called me to.
A CONSTANT ANOINTING
A couple of times when He was doing this work, I did fall asleep for an hour or
so. As soon as I awakened, though, my body would resume its shaking, and the
work would begin all over again. The Lord was not interested in having me learn
in some easy manner, and I believe this was specifically designed to show me
that the work He is calling me to do will be challenging.
I noticed, also, that the Lord always finishes whatever He begins. Realizing
this, I did not want to fall asleep, but sometimes it was very hard for me to
stay awake.
On some occasions the Lord would work with me for a couple of hours in the early
evening, then I would fall asleep, and He would wake me again at 2 A.M. or 3
A.M. in order to work with me for another two or three hours. When I experienced
such nights, the next day I would be so tired that my face would actually be
swollen from a lack of sleep.
It now seems to me as if the Lord was in a hurry to get the preparatory work
finished. In fact, He kept telling me, “There isn’t much time.” I believe this
is why He spends so many hours with me each night. He is preparing me for what
we all will be facing in these closing days.
THE ANOINTING OIL
I don’t really have control of my hands, or any part of my body, when the Holy
Spirit is doing His anointed work on me and with me. As a result of all of this,
however, I have experienced truly supernatural physical strength. As I pray for
other people, and place my hands upon them, frequently my hands will slap up and
down on their heads or shoulders, because of the Holy Spirit’s power flowing
through me. When I am anointed, no one can hold my hands because of their fast
movement under the power of the Holy Ghost.
On several different nights the Lord poured oil upon me. This precious oil was
in oval vessels that looked like small perfume bottles. The bottles were of many
different colors. He would pour the oil upon me from head to toes, and on my
back as well.
I kept track of this special experience in my journal, and I have found that He
has poured a total of eighty-five bottles of anointing oil upon me. All of the
bottles He used had caps on them except the last one.
Before being bathed in the anointing oil each time, an unusual vision-song would
come forth, and I could see the Lord much more clearly than before. Each time He
poured the oil upon me He told me to remember the bottle’s color so I could
write it down. Sometimes it was hard for me to make out the color, and on those
occasions the Lord would tell me what the color was. Each color seems to have a
special significance to the Lord.
The Lord knows every one of my thoughts, and that’s how he would realize I was
having difficulty distinguishing the colors of the bottles. On some nights He
would pour from seven different bottles, and each had its own distinct color.
Some had a single color, and others had many colors. Each color was uncommonly
beautiful.
As He poured the anointing oil on my body, I would shake, jerk, perspire and
become intensely hot. Groans from deep within my spirit would grow louder, and I
would become breathless. This would continue for about ten minutes, and then I
would rest for five minutes or so.
Then a special song would come forth before the Lord would approach me with the
bottle of oil again. As I mentioned, on some nights He would pour from seven
different bottles of oil. Other times, He would pour from only one. Since that
time I’ve learned that seven is the number of -perfection and wholeness.
When the Lord would say, “I will pour this on your back,” my body would respond
by turning over on my stomach under the power of the Holy Spirit. When He would
say, “This is for your hands,” my body would turn sideways in the direction
where He was standing, and the Holy Spirit would cause me to thrust both of my
hands in His direction.
Many times the Lord would touch my hands with His fiery hands. These were
intense experiences that caused me to feel the heat of God’s presence, and I
would weep. The power and fire of God were so strong during these moments that
my voice became weak and breathless.
SPIRIT SONGS
After a night of such singing, my voice would not be tired or weak the next day
as it might have been were I not singing under the Lord’s direction. The same is
true of my body. After a night of the Lord’s work in my body, I would feel quite
normal, except for the tiredness I sometimes experience.
Some nights, while the Lord would be working with my body and hand movements, my
entire physical being would become black and cold. At first, this scared me and
surprised me, but the Lord’s presence would always wipe the fear away. He would
say, “I’m right beside you; do not fear anything.” There were other occasions
when my entire body would become invisible as the Lord was doing His preparatory
work with me.
Most of the body-work was with my hands, eyes, face and head. Sometimes He would
form my body into the shape of a cross, and He would breathe His breath into my
mouth and nostrils. There were times when He would shoot flames from His eyes
into my eyes. In the process of these special blessings, the anointing of the
Holy Spirit would often be so strong that I wondered if I was dying. I would
respond with deep inner groans and many tears.
During some of these sessions the Lord would both lift my body and lower it. My
body would obey His power by standing up on occasion and turning over at other
times.
As I mentioned, supernatural visions would frequently accompany the body-work.
Once He showed me a mountain. At first, the mountain seemed normal, but then it
turned to fire. The whole mountain was ablaze, and it began to shine like bright
sunlight. Then I noticed that the Lord’s presence was standing in the midst of
the sunlight, and His body formed a cross.
Under the direction of the Holy Spirit, my body took the form of a cross as
well. In fact, it was stretched so severely that I experienced great pain. Each
limb of my body was stretched for at least ten minutes, and I thought the Lord
was punishing me. I wept throughout this memorable experience.
Each type of body-work and the supernatural visions would continue for many
days. Then, when the Lord was ready to move on, they would change to a different
type of work and emphasis. Usually each type of preparatory work would last from
three to five days. Upon completion, He would go back over each thing He did for
me. Many times He would raise and lower my body forty-nine times a night.
When He completed each session, the Lord’s presence stood close to me. Some
nights He simply anointed me with the precious oil of the Holy Spirit.
Throughout each visitation, I would perspire from the heat, and my spirit would
groan. The power of the Holy Spirit was overwhelming--so much so, in fact, that
upon occasion, I felt as if I were losing my mind.
CHRISTMAS EVES
“Lord, why are You wearing such a beautiful gown and crown?” I asked.
“Daughter, it is My birthday,” He responded with a smile.
Whenever the Lord smiles at me, I return the smile automatically. I could not
close my mouth if I wanted to. Though I usually can’t see His face, I am able to
tell when He is happy or sad or angry.
On twenty-eight separate occasions the Lord wore this beautiful golden robe and
crown. At these times it always seemed as if He was especially happy. He wears
these spectacular garments at times of celebration, including each time when a
phase of my body-work would be completed.
When my heart would wonder why He was dressed in such royal garments, He would
say, “I am celebrating, My daughter.” With dancing hands my heart and body would
respond to His desire to celebrate, and my spirit would respond with my special
vision-voice and heavenly Spirit songs.
A GOLDEN
When this was completed, I rested for several days. Then the Lord reappeared and
began to talk with me. For several nights, He simply anointed me. Each of these
anointings lasted for fifteen minutes, then I would rest for five minutes. This
continued over and over for at least seven times each night. Each time I would
lie down and groan like a sick person, and it seemed as if I would lose
consciousness.
CRUCIFIXION
When I saw His crucified body, there was blood streaming down His face and on
His body. The crown of thorns was upon His head. I noticed how large and strong
His body was. His skin was tan and His hair was dark and curly. His muscular
body glistened with sweat.
The Lord’s eyes were vividly penetrating and alive. Even though His body was
unclean and covered with blood, He looked very handsome. I will never forget
this experience. He stood before me with His hands stretched out in the form of
a cross. As before, my body responded by stretching out, and it too took the
shape of a cross.
The power was so heavy that I felt I would die. It was the most amazing
spiritual experience I had ever had. I felt breathless and I cried throughout
it. I had both sadness and joy. But the joy I experienced was so full that I
felt I wanted to die for Him right at that moment.
I could not tell how much time had elapsed, but I knew it must have been a long
time because my arms were stretched out as far as they could be, and it was very
painful. When this vision of His crucifixion and my identification with it was
over, the Lord said, “This was the hardest work of all.” The next night He
empowered me with such a powerful anointing that my body was raised and lowered
seven different times. Many different anointings followed, then I rested for ten
days.
The experience was profoundly moving, and it was a life-changing event for me.
For the first time in my life, I truly comprehended a little bit of what the
Lord went through for me on the cross. In some small measure, I actually felt
the pain He had experienced, and I cried in the anguish of my soul in a way that
must have been what He experienced.
Likewise, I realized more fully than ever before that He went through such
horrors for me so I would be able to live, not perish. The verse that loudly
proclaims my salvation is so meaningful to me: “For
God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever
believes in him should not perish but have everlasting life” (John
3:16). Thank You, Lord, for saving my soul.
UNLOCKING MY BODY
All of this unusual body-work would cause me to feel very tired, because He
would cause my body to rise and kneel before Him in intervals of seven, over and
over again. I would cry the entire time this was going on because His work in my
life was so overwhelming and humbling to me.
At times I was so tired that I could barely stand again. His preparatory work
that took place while I was lying down was so much easier. Many different nights
I would be required to stand for two hours, and each aspect of this body-work,
involving every part of my body, would be repeated seven times.
Thirty-three different times He “unlocked” the various parts of my body that
needed His work of preparation. Some of my “body locks” needed to be “unlocked”
seven different times during each session. When He unlocked my hands, for
instance, they shook so hard that I grew frightened, and when He did the
unlocking of my eyes, they became intensely hot and had to be closed tightly for
at least five minutes.
The Lord would always let me know in advance which area of my body would be
unlocked next. Each part of my body had a special reaction to the unlocking
work. As I mentioned, He unlocked my hands seven times, and the same was true
for my face and head. The remaining thirty-three unlockings were for the rest of
my body.
Each time the Lord pours the anointing oil on me or unlocks the locks of my
body, my physical being responds with violent shaking, jerking, intense heat,
groans and supernatural power that causes my body to be lifted up. All of this
work tightens the sinews and muscles of my body, and it is as if my body is
trying to pull in on itself. When these things happen, my voice takes on a
quality of fright, and I become breathless. Before these things occur, the
unusual spiritual voice comes forth from deep within me.
When the Lord completed this phase of my body-work, He gave me another huge
golden key. I’ve never seen such a big key before, and I believe it symbolizes
how He is unlocking every area of my life so He can use me for His glory.
THE LAST
This time I was frightened because my hands had never shaken like this before,
and it was repeated seven different times. When He had completed this work on my
hands, an unusual voice came forth, and the Lord showed me a key and a lock.
The fact was that He had unlocked my whole body for His service. The last key
and lock were the biggest I had ever seen. He told me that the key would unlock
my whole body. As the key turned in the lock, I saw the lock open, and my body
lifted as it shook and jerked while I perspired profusely. Afterward, my hands
began to shake violently again, and they gestured in the shape of a cross seven
different times.
Then the Lord spoke to me.
“My daughter, I am very pleased with all the body-work in your life. Now you are
ready for the world. Because of your obedience and faith, I was able to complete
this work fully. Thank you for your patience.”
The Lord has frequently told me that the body-work He did with me was the
hardest part. Without His power of healing, I could not have endured it. After
four hours of His continual workmanship, my body would feel so tired that I
wondered how I could possibly go on.
The Lord explained: “One hour of the body work you have gone through is harder
than eight hours of work during the day, because of the anointing.”
I knew this was true, because at the end of each phase of the work, I would feel
dizzy and weak for a long time. I always had to catch up on my sleep and rest.
VISIONS
OF
A second vision then came forth, accompanied by a strong vision-voice. This time
the Lord showed me the whole world once more. The sky was filled with black
clouds. Then it began to storm and rain. The lightning flashed, and many cities
were destroyed. I could see the buildings within these cities collapsing.
My voice intensified, and I began to cry as the Lord told me that all of these
things would begin to come to pass at that time.
“I will destroy many countries with floods, tornadoes and earthquakes in order
to show the people that I am God, and that they need to prepare for My coming.
Many people will suffer, many will divorce, many hearts will be broken for their
loved ones, and many lives will be taken, including many Christians. You must
include these visions in your book, My daughter.”
Countless times He showed me similar visions, and He told me that it is time to
prepare for His coming.
Chapter
18
An
End-Times Prophetess
And
He Himself gave some to be...prophets...
for the equipping of the saints for the work of ministry,
for the edifying of the body of Christ.
--Ephesians
4:11-12
EVERY
TIME THE Lord’s presence comes near, the groaning from deep within my spirit
begins. Words do not come forth, just groans. This permits me to communicate
with the Lord from my heart to His heart, bypassing my voice and mind. Sometimes
we also whisper to each other.
The Lord explained that heart-to-heart communication is the most important kind
of fellowship. Through this, Satan is unable to hear what we are saying. During
each body-work session I would not able to speak directly to the Lord with my
voice, but only with my heart.
“My daughter, you are an End-Times prophetess,” the Lord told me, “and you are
living proof of My Word and My prophecies.”
He went on to explain that it was for this reason that He showed me the writers
with their notebooks in His throne room when I went to heaven with Him. He told
me that many people don’t believe His words and prophecies, and He said even
some Christians do not believe them. Now I realize that everything He shared
with me is a confirmation of the words of His Bible, and the prophecies He gave
me are echoes of His Word.
ABOUNDING JOY
What other people may think about me no longer bothers me. When I go to church,
it is to please the Lord only, not other people. I have learned that a person
cannot truly please the Lord if he or she is worried about what other people
think.
After Easter 1995, some people considered my actions entertainment, because of
all the shaking and jumping I would do under the power of the Holy Spirit.
However, heavenly songs and dancing are included during each worship time now. I
used to wonder what people thought about me, but now I don’t care, just as long
as the Lord is pleased by my obedience. Pastor Larry Randolph prophesied that I
am “godly different,” and he is absolutely right.
MORE
UNLOCKINGS
Each time after regular prayer, His presence comes to me. After He talks with
me, He usually anoints me with very strong power, and I repeat all the hand
movements He did before, and He shows me many visions that He has previously
revealed. He follows all this by working on many different aspects of my
preparation, including the hand movements. He lets me rest between different
phases of the body-work.
The unlocking of the thirty-third lock was quite a different experience from the
other times. This lock was shaped differently than the others, and it was the
biggest lock and key of all. The Lord was wearing a golden crown and robe. He
touched my hands with His hands, and then He said, “You are ordained by your
Lord.”
The next night He made both my hands spin around seven different times, in seven
different ways. This was followed by my unusual vision-voice, and I noticed His
golden apparel. He showed me a silver ball that was so round and shiny it seemed
to be like glass. He held it in his right hand and said, “My daughter, you are a
perfectly made vessel.”
I learned that every time the Lord brought an object to His visits with me, it
symbolized something He was doing in my life. One night, after my bedtime
prayer, the Lord showed me another vision of the sky.
The moon and stars brightened the sky, and I saw the Lord in a shaft of light
that was as bright as the sun. He was wearing a gold crown and robe, and He was
holding a golden ball that was covered with stones, which He was lowering from
heaven. A bright and shiny brilliance surrounded Him.
My special vision-voice came forth, and I saw the Lord before me. He was holding
the ball in both of His hands, then He put it in His right hand and said, “I
will pour this anointing on your head.”
When He removed the top of the ball, steam came out. When He poured it upon me,
I didn’t feel the same strong power I had felt during previous anointings. After
this, He showed me the whole ocean and the world, and He said, “The world is
yours.”
A PILLAR
OF
I rested for a few minutes, and my eyes closed tightly again. This time I saw a
huge pillar of fire coming down from the sky. It fell into the middle of the
ocean. After a few moments more of rest, my eyes closed tightly again, and power
came into my body.
I heard a loud noise in the air, and I saw many airplanes in the sky. They were
shooting huge, oval-shaped missiles. As the missiles were fired, many buildings
were being destroyed. Armed and uniformed people scattered everywhere, and I
began to cry. The Lord explained that this war would begin in 1998.
TIME TO AWAKEN
“I must wake the sleeping people,” He explained. “Many of them are living in the
dark, and when bad things happen, they blame them on Satan. I will make the
hearts of these people tremble because many of them are not seeing or hearing
how soon I am coming for them. The only ones that will hear the trumpet are
those who are ready and waiting for Me. The rest will have to go through the
tribulation.”
A
Immediately after He spoke these words, my eyes closed tightly and I groaned
loudly. Then I saw heaven open, and two persons came down. The area surrounding
these people was as bright as the sun. One was wearing a white robe and holding
a huge bottle with both hands. The Lord was wearing a golden gown and crown.
Then the two people vanished, and my special vision-voice came forth.
After this the Lord stood in front of me. He was holding the huge gold bottle.
It appeared to be made of solid gold, and it did not have a top on it. The Lord
held the bottle in both hands. The enormity of the bottle surprised me, and I
thought that I would barely be able to hold it in both my arms.
Curiosity filled my heart as I reached for the bottle, and it truly did fill my
arms. I realized this was why an angel had to carry it down for the Lord. The
Lord spoke to me: “I will pour it on you from the top of your head to the bottom
of your feet. Your body shall be anointed with fire.”
The minute He started pouring forth the contents of the gold bottle upon me, my
entire body felt like it was on fire, and my voice sounded as if I was sick, and
I began to cry. Then I began to sing, and my hands stretched out sideways, then
raised above my head.
As this was happening I was saying, “Father, thank You for everything You
promised to me.” I couldn’t put my hands down until I had said, “In Jesus’
name.”
Next, my hands raised seven different times to the Father, and I said things I
wanted to say in Jesus’ name. Then I fell prostrate on the floor, and my face
hit the floor as I humbled myself before the Father. I discovered that I
couldn’t raise my head until I said, “In Jesus’ name.”
I soon learned that I could never do these things on my own. Until I say, “In
Jesus’ name,” my hands won’t go down, and my face will not move. I believe the
Lord was teaching me the importance of praying to the Father in Jesus’ name.
I always pray in Jesus’ name for everything, and I believe He wants me to
include this in the book so those who don’t use Jesus’ name will understand. The
Lord then told me that the angel who had assisted Him was Michael.
THE ANGEL MICHAEL
Through the heart-to-heart communication that we had established, I asked the
Lord if I could clearly see Michael. Just then my eyes closed very tightly, and
the groaning from my spirit grew very loud. My body moved backward against the
bed. Then I saw Michael standing in the backyard.
Within seconds he was standing before me, and his head almost touched the
ceiling. Just as the Lord had described him, Michael had blond hair and deep
blue eyes. His complexion was very fair, and he had a wonderful smile on his
face. He said, “Choo Nam, you are my Lord’s precious daughter, and you are
pleasing Him.” With that, he smiled once more and left. The thing about him that
I remember most clearly was his sparkling, deep blue eyes. His beautiful smile
gave me a sense of joy and peace.
ANOTHER VISIT TO HEAVEN
One thing He did not show me again was hell. I believe He didn’t want me to
re-experience such a horrible, hideous scene. Truly, I can never forget anything
the Lord has ever shown me or told me.
Jesus told His disciples: “These things I have
spoken to you while being present with you. But the Helper, the Holy Spirit,
whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to
your remembrance all things that I said to you” (John
14:25-26).
That was exactly what was taking place in my life, and the Holy Spirit’s work of
remembrance continues in my life to the present.
Chapter
19
Growing Confidence
But
let patience have its perfect work,
that you may be perfect and complete,
lacking nothing.
--James
1:4
On May 7, 1998, the Lord came to me wearing a gold robe and a gold crown. He
stood in front of me, and my body had such a strong anointing imposed upon it
that at first I grew frightened. I saw the Lord’s right hand raised up, and both
my hands stretched out toward Him. He said, “I am blessing you for all the work
I have prepared for you to do.”
From July 11, 1996, until the present the Lord has done much work in my life.
I’ve tried to detail all of this in the book by writing down each step. The Lord
told me to record His work and His words under the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
At first, it all seemed too hard to believe--the special gifts, the wonderful
visitations, the prophetic visions, the trips to heaven and the supernatural
events. It all seemed too good to be true.
Looking back over all that I have experienced, I realize that the Lord was
taking me through a special growth and grooming process of preparation for
ministry. As a result, my faith has soared and my hope has exploded within me.
Now I believe everything He tells me and shows to me. He has kept every promise,
including all the promises about the book. He gave me the title for the book,
and He led me to a Spirit-filled writer who has helped me polish some of my
words and phrases. Knowing that everything He has said is true makes waiting all
the more difficult.
After the vision of heaven, the Lord fulfilled all the things that needed to be
done until now. His presence would always appear after each and every one of my
prayer times. That was His promise, and He was completely trustworthy. About two
years ago, when I was experiencing some unhappiness about matters at my church,
I prayed earnestly to the Lord. I needed His wisdom and His guidance.
I knew that the Bible’s promise was true: “If any
of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and
upbraideth not; and it shall be given him. But let him ask in faith, nothing
wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind
and tossed” (James
1:5-6, kjv).
In spite of my belief in that promise, it seemed as if the heavens were becoming
as brass when I prayed. I could not see the Lord or hear His voice, and I
wondered if I would ever be able to see Him again. I began to weep. After
sobbing and screaming in a loud voice that called out to Jesus over and over
again for a period of fifteen minutes or more, the Lord reappeared to me.
That day, I learned something vitally important. He showed me that my heart must
be cheerful and clean in order to experience His presence and to hear His voice.
I believe that is why the Lord removed from my life contact with all the people
I knew since He started taking me to heaven until the present. He doesn’t want
anything to interrupt my mind while He is training me for the work He has for
me.
PRAYER,
Each time I pray, at the end of my prayer time my stomach tightens, my body
shakes, my spirit groans and then the Lord appears. When He departs, my body
goes through the same manifestations it experiences before He appears to me.
After all the body-work was completed, the Lord would visit me every day at
dinner time. My husband, Roger, always prays at dinnertime, and I agree with him
in prayer by praying in tongues. As we do this, the Lord’s presence appears
right on time, then He departs at the end of prayer. He always comments about
the food, and even jokes with me sometimes. I usually laugh at His wonderful
humor.
The Lord usually tells me to eat anything I want, and He explains that in heaven
I will not be able to eat many of things I enjoy here. Roger knows what I
experience at these times because he sees my body shaking. Each time the
anointing is so strong that my body feels like it is on fire. When dinner
consists of seafood and vegetables, the Lord always tells me that they are good,
nutritious foods.
WHO THE LORD IS TO ME
He is such a patient listener, no matter how long I talk. He never interrupts
me. I soon discovered that He knows everything there is to know about me. He
often reminds me of my plans for a given day.
It has now been almost two and one half years that I have been living under the
Lord’s control. I always endeavor to obey His ways instead of my own, and I find
that I am very pleased with everything, but I still struggle at times with
impatience.
Jesus is my best friend, and I find Him to be very human. I can talk to Him
anytime or anywhere. He even told me that I can ask Him any kind of question,
but I must not question Him when He asks me to do something.
Even though He is my best friend, I am very humbled in His presence. I
reverentially fear and respect Him very much, because I know He is God. At the
beginning, I asked to see His presence more clearly and to hear His voice more
distinctly. He responded, “My daughter, you see My spirit.”
Because He is a Spirit, I am not able to see Him clearly at all times. Whenever
His presence becomes vivid to me, I am almost overwhelmed by the strong power of
His anointing upon my life.
During some of the body-work sessions, I am able to make out the Lord’s presence
more clearly than usual. When this happens, the accompanying anointing is
tremendously powerful. Since the Lord showed me heaven and the pit of hell, I
have not been the same. Now, whenever I see the unsaved or I am aware of
lukewarmness in a Christian’s life, my heart begins to ache for them because I
know what it takes to get into God’s kingdom.
The urgency I feel for souls keeps me motivated at all times. Now I even want to
help my enemies whenever I can. The Lord has repeated to me several times what
is going to happen to people after the judgment.
He explained that only about twenty percent of Christians are actually pleasing
Him. He has assured me, however, that He will give His people a final chance to
purify themselves before He comes for us, and He explained that this is why He
chose me to write this book.
He wants me to serve as living proof of the Bible and His prophecies, because
many people do not believe what they read in the Bible, nor do they believe He
is coming soon for His people. He also said that this book would be a tool for
the salvation of millions of souls.
NO FEAR!
My body and my mouth were sealed while the Lord was doing the necessary
body-work and preparatory teaching in my life. The Lord told me that He wanted
me to keep all this to myself until a later time that He would reveal. The
timing has to be just right because I’m sure there are many people who would not
believe me if I were to tell them what has happened.
After I experienced the visions and other supernatural phenomena, my writer
pointed out some Scriptures that help to verify the experiences God gave to me.
At the time, I did not know the Scriptures well enough to know where such
information could be found.
In fact, I used to complain to the Lord that I did not know enough to be used by
Him. Frequently I would ask Him, “Why did You choose me, Lord?”
He answered very clearly: “It is because you are so teachable that I have chosen
you.”
He explained that I would not do anything on my own because I understood that I
needed Him in everything. That, of course, is the key to progress in the
spiritual life. It is also the key to being used by the Lord--to remain open to
Him and all He has in store for us.
Now, when I read the Bible, I can understand some things very clearly, whereas
before I felt almost blinded to the truth. I have found that I can memorize
Bible verses with great ease, and I have memorized close to 300 of my favorite
Scriptures. The Lord helped because I have so much desire for His Word. This was
also needed for witnessing and meditating. I realize that without knowing God’s
Word, it is hard to witness.
Throughout the many years of training, the Lord has disciplined me, tested me
and even disappointed me to determine just how strong my faith actually is.
He removed all ungodly influences (including people) from my life. Sometimes He
even permitted sickness to come back to ones He had previously healed so He
could see how strong my faith in Him and my love for Him actually are. At times,
He even permitted me to grow disappointed so He could see how impatient and
angry I would become; but even in such circumstances I have never loved Him or
trusted Him less, no matter how disappointed I became.
I cried in His presence countless times, asking Him why He was making me wait so
long for the fulfillment of His promises. There were a few times when I thought
He was going to fulfill His promise in a given week, only to discover that I had
to go through the same training processes I had already gone through. It caused
me so much disappointment that I actually wanted to die.
Sometimes I feel so run down that I want to give up everything the Lord
promised. At times I have felt that I heard a wrong voice. Several times I asked
Him if I was hearing other voices or my own voice. His voice would reflect
disappointment, as He would remind me that I was hearing everything from my Lord
Jesus Christ of Nazareth.
When He said these words, instantaneous joy would come so quickly that I would
forget all of my discouragement. If it weren’t for His talking with me, I don’t
think I would have endured.
During His training, I cried numerous times. When He was finished, however, He
said: “Choo Nam, you have passed your test by scoring more than 100 percent.”
His words of praise and affirmation thrilled my soul. It was a three-year course
for ministry, and I can honestly say I never disobeyed the Lord once. He knew I
was always available for Him to do His work.
No matter how difficult the work became, nor how disappointed I was, I always
knew deep and abiding joy and peace. After my visits to the heavenly kingdom, I
feel as if I now live in the kingdom of God. All I think about is what I can do
to please the Lord, and I will do whatever it takes. Things of this earth mean
nothing to me now.
Often, I’ve asked the Lord to take me home permanently, but He has refused by
saying that there is much work for me to do. Since January 1996, my daily life
has been lived entirely for God. He is first, last and everything in between. He
is my all. I normally pray four or five hours a day, but during the times of
body-work, I spent between seven and nine hours a day with the Lord, and
sometimes even more.
MY LOVING HUSBAND
Without His agreement, our marriage could never have survived. Roger is a true
help to me in every respect, and he is a great support in my ministry.
Roger and I know that without God we are helpless. With Him, however, we both
know that we can accomplish all things. There is nothing that is impossible with
our perfect God. He knows everything there is to know about us. He even knows
what we have need of before we express those needs to Him. Jesus said, “Your
Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him” (Matthew
6:8, KJV).
We have chosen to put God first in our lives. Jesus said, “Seek
ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall
be added unto you” (Matthew
6:33, KJV). This wonderful promise has proved itself true in our lives over
and over again.
I must admit that sometimes it’s not easy to live a fully spiritual life, always
putting God first; but I’ve learned that I cannot do anything without the Lord’s
permission. He always tells me to stay focused on Him and the work He is
preparing me for. He warns me not to put anything or anyone in front of those
goals.
It’s been difficult, but I’ve learned that keeping my mind stayed on Him is the
source of perfect peace, as the prophet Isaiah pointed out. If anything is
bothering me, I’m not able to focus on Him, and I lose my peace. I know this is
not God’s will for me, because Jesus said: “Peace
I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto
you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid” (John
14:27, KJV).
The Lord is always a present help in our lives, even when we can’t see or hear
Him. “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today,
and forever” (Hebrews
13:8). He is living in us, and that is how He knows everything about us. I
have learned that when we pray to Him or worship Him, He wants us to focus only
on Him.
Chapter
20
The Heavens Opened Up
But he, being full of the Holy Spirit,
gazed into heaven and saw the glory of God,
and Jesus standing at the right hand of God,
and said, “Look! I see the heavens opened and the
Son of Man standing at the right hand of God!”
--Acts
7:55-56
ON
At first everything was bright, and then I saw all of heaven. It was a place of
purity and whiteness, and the roads and buildings were immaculately clean.
He took me into heaven once more, and He began to show me things one by one. A
brilliance like sunlight was everywhere.
Then the Lord showed me all the oceans of the world and the whole earth. Snow
was covering the earth. The Lord explained: “I must purify My people before I
bring them to My kingdom. Unless they are pure-hearted, they cannot see My
kingdom.”
Then I remembered one of the Beatitudes: “Blessed
are the pure in heart, for they shall see God” (Matthew
5:8).
My arms stretched out sideways, making a crosslike form out of my body. This
lasted for at least ten minutes. I cried throughout that time span, but I wasn’t
sure if my tears were coming from gratitude, joy or pain. The Lord was repeating
some of the previous lessons, and He reiterated that He wanted me to put them
all down in the book.
This helps me to better understand the title He gave to this book, Heaven Is So
Real! By repeating these lessons and experiences in my life, I grew to know
exactly how real heaven is.
THE THRONE OF GOD
Both the Father and the Son were wearing white. I couldn’t see their faces, but
I heard a voice saying: “Choo Nam, I am releasing you to do the work I have
prepared you for. You will serve Me now. I am pleased with everything about
you.”
Hearing this confirmation was more thrilling than words can tell. After this
vision of heaven vanished, the Lord’s presence appeared once more, and He
repeated what the Father had said to me. It was as if I was being launched into
the service God had called me to, and it was wonderful to know this was
happening.
ANGELS
WATCHING
Above the stars I saw clouds, and above the clouds I saw heaven. The brightness
of heaven was astounding, and its vastness is indescribable. It is truly an
endless expanse that goes all around the earth. Whenever the Lord shows heaven
to me, I respond with constant joyful singing.
This time when the Lord showed heaven to me, he also showed me a multitude of
angels flying everywhere. I noticed, also, that the angels of heaven were flying
throughout the atmosphere of earth as well. The Lord told me that the angels I
saw flying all around the earth were watching over His people.
Some of the visions God imparted to me came after the Lord made my fingers touch
my eyes more than a thousand times in two months. He took me through each step
seven different times.
Whenever this happened I would see the most beautiful sparkles, like diamonds,
then I would see the beautiful stones of heaven. One stone, in particular,
looked like an eyeball. At first, it appeared to be a very dark purple, then it
changed to lighter and lighter colors until it looked like a sparkling, clear
diamond. It is the most beautifully colored stone I’ve ever seen. It almost
seemed to be on my hand, because I could see its sparkles so clearly.
CHRISTMAS EVE MEMORIES WITH THE LORD
I can honestly say that I will never forget anything the Lord showed me or said
to me. He often repeated things to help me develop patience, and He reminded me
that without patience, no one might truly serve Him.
He pointed out that salvation is an unmerited gift of His grace, but receiving
other special gifts requires hard work. All the gifts are free, but we must
practice patience to obtain them. Everything in our lives must be according to
His way, not our way. We must obey Him, no matter what it takes.
He explained that during His time on this earth He lived only to obey His
Father’s will. He was not interested in pursuing His own will or plans, only
God’s. He also pointed out to me that those to whom He imparts special gifts for
ministry must pay a higher price than others. He concluded by saying, “Even if
you don’t want to do this work, you have to do so, because I have chosen you to
be an End-Time prophetess.”
As I mentioned before, the Lord is so understanding of my needs, even when I
complain. He always stands there and listens to everything I say. When I finish,
He says: “My daughter, I understand how you feel, but I must do it this way. It
has to be in My way and in My time.” After His gentle rebukes I always feel
humbled, and I respond by repenting of my impatience, my questioning and my lack
of understanding.
A NEW YEAR DAWNS
On
He told me that He was celebrating my work. We conversed for a while, then my
hands stretched toward Him, and He put His hands on top of my hands. He said
simply, “Bless you.”
As He said this, the power seemed so strong that I felt my whole body was
merging with Him. I sobbed under the intense anointing of that moment, and then
my hands once more rested on my chest as I quieted down.
The period from January 9 through
THE POWER OF PRAYER
After this session of body-work was finished, the Lord changed back into His
normal white gown. He proceeded to tell me that He was revealing all the work He
had prepared for me to do. From this time forth, He explained, I must only pray
in tongues to reveal continually all the work He prepared and all His promises
to me. When He begins my dancing ministry, I will have fellowship only with Him
and will pray for the work. He pointed out that I would not have as much time
for prayer.
For many years I’ve been engaged in intercessory prayer seven days a week. It
takes nearly two hours for me to pray for the people God puts on my heart, and
for all the nations of the world. I said, “Lord, it will be hard for me not to
pray for all these people.”
He responded, “It is time for them to pray for you.”
Then He proceeded to tell me how to pray most effectively. “Choo Nam, as you
begin to pray, always praise the Father first, and then start to pray in tongues
for your work and ministry.” He further encouraged me to take my stand upon His
promises so the enemy would not ever be able to steal the promises from me.
As the Master taught me more about prayer, I realized how very important it is
in each of our lives. He told me to pray in tongues when I rise in the morning
until the flow ceases each Sunday before I go to church. Then he urged me to go
to church thirty minutes early each time, and to pray in tongues without
interruption until the worship begins.
Some people don’t understand why I do this, but the ones who do understand are
those who have a deep, personal walk with the Lord. They understand what I mean
when I say that Jesus is more real to me than I am to myself.
He listens so very patiently when I talk to Him. No matter how bad a given set
of circumstances may seem, all I have to do is to talk it over with Him, then
the situation gets better. I talk to Him in the Spirit, but to me, He is so
human and real that it’s as if I’ve entered an entirely new dimension of life.
No one understands me like Jesus does. I value Him above life itself.
My church work now consists only of praying for the church, its people, the
pastors and so on. I do so daily, and I worship the Lord with all my heart
during the church services. During those precious times of worship I am totally
oblivious to those around me.
I usually see the Lord walking around the front of the church with a very happy
face. That is why I frequently find myself laughing heartily during worship.
During those times I give every ounce of my energy and attention to the Lord,
and I believe that’s what worship really is.
REMAIN QUIET UNTIL THE PROPER TIME
Sometimes this realization made me want to leave my church and go to another
church where no one knew me. I almost wanted to hide from others, because I am a
very sensitive person, and I hate for others to think I’m avoiding them.
It all required supernatural patience. I realized that many might not believe me
about my revelation of heaven, but I was not concerned about such matters,
because I knew my Lord Jesus would take care of it as He had said He would. Now
I know how Jesus felt when no one believed Him, when He walked this earth.
Realizing what He had to go through for me always makes me feel better when I’m
misunderstood or judged by others.
A POLISHED VESSEL
On
He was careful to warn me not to let anyone interrupt me. His direction was
clear, “You may go earlier, but no later than 9:30.” This, I realized, must have
been the reason for the new tongue He had given to me about ten days before.
A week later, the Lord told me to do the same things. About ten minutes before
the worship service began, I saw the Lord standing on the platform, and He was
wearing the beautiful gown and crown He always wears on special occasions. He
looked very happy, and the minute I saw His presence I experienced a heavy
spiritual anointing.
I could barely stand up during worship times. After church, I prayed as usual,
and I asked the Lord why He was wearing the special vestments at church that
morning. He answered, “I have opened the door for your work to begin.”
THE
I was very disappointed, and I cried and complained before Him when I returned
home. For at least one hour the Lord listened to me, and when I finished my
outpouring, I humbled myself in repentance. The Lord simply said that I must
have misunderstood Him. Despite all these negative feelings, however, it was the
strongest anointing I’d ever experienced during a worship time.
On
I have seen enough of this world, and everything it has to offer pales in
insignificance compared with the light of the heavenly vision God has graciously
given me. Just seeing my Lord and serving Him for the rest of my life are enough
for me, I realized, and I began to weep. I really meant every word, and the Lord
knew my thoughts. He said, “My daughter, you are doubly blessed.”
Though I wasn’t exactly sure what that meant, I knew I had been telling the Lord
that if I ever had to exchange my life for this book, I would be honored to do
so. My life in this world holds very little meaning for me now. I only want
everyone to read the book, and to discover what it takes to enter the kingdom of
God.
Chapter
21
A
Fool for God
But
God has chosen the foolish things
of the world to put to shame the wise.
--1
Corinthians 1:27
ON THE FIRST day of spring, 1999, the Lord told me many things during worship,
and I almost made a fool of myself. Usually during worship times, my hands will
move in every direction as I participate in the heavenly dancing and singing,
but on this Sunday morning, I couldn’t even lift my hands during the entire
worship service, but my body was powerfully anointed throughout the time. I was
confused by this turn of events.
In fact, the whole experience made me feel miserable. It was about the fourth
time I had felt very unhappy since the Lord had started showing me the heavenly
visions. I still had peace, but my mind was somewhat disturbed, even after the
service when I was in the presence of the Lord.
After church, I complained to the Lord, and I did so again before dinnertime,
but the Lord remained silent. I felt increasingly miserable. Suddenly the
thought came to me that it was Satan who was doing this to me, so I cast out the
devil in Jesus’ name, and joy came back to me instantaneously.
I rejoiced with great smiles and happiness; then I asked the Lord for
forgiveness. He responded: “My daughter, you do not know how to protect
yourself. Many Christians do not know how to cast out the enemy as you just did,
and you must include this experience in your book.
“It is very important for every Christian to know how to cast the enemy out.
When you are sick or you have other problems in your life, first you cast out
the devil and then you pray to the Father in My name.”
What an important teaching that was for me! It soon was followed by the Lord
teaching me about judging others. I used to wonder why some Spirit-filled
believers have so many problems with earthly things. I didn’t really think badly
toward them, but I must admit that I did find myself wondering about it. I would
think that perhaps these Christians were living against God’s will, and for this
reason, bad things would happen to their loved ones. Then God used my own
daughter to teach me something about this attitude.
My daughter and I had a very close relationship, and we were best friends until
suddenly our relationship stopped about three years ago. She is a Spirit-filled
Christian and we thought she had good marriage, but suddenly she and her husband
were having problems.
Eventually my daughter divorced her husband. They had two children. It had
seemed as if they had everything they needed and wanted--more than most
people--but they lost everything as a result of their marital problems and
subsequent divorce. Though my daughter was successful in her job, she was
surrounded by unbelievers and lived a completely ungodly life. As a result, she
had all kinds of problems.
Before their marriage problems began, I had noticed how my daughter was moving
far from the Lord. Each time I mentioned the Lord to her, she didn’t want to
hear about Him or talk about Him. She went to church once a week with her
children and read the Bible and prayed, but otherwise she lived a worldly life.
Before her problems began, she had taken my advice, but suddenly she quit
wanting to hear anything I had to say. She was a completely changed person.
Roger and I felt that we never really knew her. We felt that she had lost all of
her principles.
It gave me a measure of comfort to know the Lord was watching her behavior, but
I knew He would not do anything for her until she repented and gave herself
totally to Him. God will never force any of us to do anything that we don’t want
to do.
The Lord taught us many things through our daughter. Since becoming a Christian,
I have not believed in divorce or in doing ungodly things knowingly. Therefore,
I was very ashamed about my daughter’s divorce and her ungodly life. It broke my
heart so much that she was hurting our Lord Jesus. This was the hardest thing
that had happened to us since we were saved, but we never blamed the Lord once.
We humbled ourselves because we knew He would take care of everything in His way
perfectly.
I believe the Lord didn’t like my shameful thoughts about this matter, and He
gave me no choice but to include my daughter’s story in this book. I had already
promised Him that no matter what the situation, I would obey Him all the days of
my life. Therefore, I never questioned Him about why I had to do this. I only
said: “If this is what you want, Lord, I will do it.”
Now her life is settled and our relationship is like it used to be, but her life
is so busy that she doesn’t have time for herself or others. I am most concerned
that she doesn’t have time for the Lord.
After the revelation of heaven I had received and experienced, the Lord
mentioned to me several times that there will be many divorces, many broken
families and many people dying. Among them, He explained, will be many
Christians.
I learned the things that happen to our children may have nothing at all to do
with a parent’s life with God. The Lord explained it this way, “Even many
faithful Christians and their loved ones have bad things happen sometimes.
Judging others is one of the worst sins. No one has the right to judge others,
no matter what the situation is, and until you learn through your own
experience, this is a hard truth to understand.”
From that moment on, no matter what ungodly things may happen in people’s lives,
I choose never to think anything evil toward them. Rather, I choose to have
compassion on them, as Paul commanded: “Brethren,
if a man be overtaken in a fault, ye which are spiritual, restore such an one in
the spirit of meekness; considering thyself, lest thou also be tempted. Bear ye
one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ” (Galatians
6:1-2, KJV).
WORSHIP TIMES
Then, on March 28, I couldn’t move my hands or my mouth, and I cried during the
entire service with such joy and humbleness because I knew it was the Holy
Spirit who was controlling my body. The Lord told me I should not ever do
anything on my own when worship begins, so I always would sit there until the
Holy Spirit would move upon me.
On this occasion, my body was powerfully anointed, and I stood up, but I could
not lift my hands throughout the entire worship time. When the worship ended, my
hands and mouth released the Lord’s power.
On April 11, 1999, the Lord told me in the morning that it would be a special
day, so I geared up for action in the realm of miracles. Instead, the Lord came
with His gold crown and robe, and He stood by the pulpit for at least twenty
minutes. That alone was miracle enough, I reasoned.
I prayed the entire time under a very heavy anointing. I could not move my hands
or dance throughout the entire worship time.
On April 18, 1999, the Lord instructed me about what I should do that morning
after I prayed in tongues for a half hour before worship. He told me not to move
my body in my own way but to sit and wait, so that is exactly what I did.
Before the first song was over, my body stood up, but I couldn’t move any part
of it. Suddenly heavenly songs came forth, and the Holy Spirit moved my body to
the front of the worship team, and my body turned toward the congregation and I
started to dance with my heavenly song.
When worship was over, my singing and dancing stopped, and I returned to my seat
with the Lord’s permission. During the whole time while I was dancing my eyes
were closed, fixed only on Jesus. I felt such unspeakable joy throughout the
service. Ordinarily I am a very shy person, but I felt stunned with such a
strong anointing this time that I didn’t care what people thought or said.
The Lord directed me to tell the pastor that there will be many surprises and
blessings coming for the church, and that the dance was under the prompting of
the Holy Spirit. It was one of the happiest days of my life--a day I had long
awaited because the Lord promised that this dance would be the beginning of my
ministry.
I also saw a vision that day, after He started my body-work. I saw myself
standing on a rock, looking down at the endless ocean. I was wearing a white
gown, as I enjoyed the vision by dancing and singing on the rock.
Rachel in Heaven
“Rachel was chosen for End-Time use,” He said, “and she was chosen before she
was born. Through her, I plan to touch millions of souls, both young and old.”
Before this I had been crying for Rachel, because it blessed me so much to know
how she had stood up for her Lord in the face of death. I knew she was with Him
in heaven, and that knowledge brought great joy to me. I have never felt sorry
about how she died because I knew where she went after death. Whoever dies for
our Lord Jesus experiences the greatest blessings of all.
The Lord told me many things about Rachel, but when I awoke the next morning in
order to write the experience in the book, I completely forgot her name. No
matter how hard I tried, her name would not come to me, so I thought maybe it
wasn’t that important for me to include her in the book.
After my morning prayer, while the Lord and I were talking, I told Him about how
her name would not come back to me. He whispered, “Rachel,” and I’ve never
forgotten her name again. The Lord said: “Rachel is happier with Me than she
ever was on earth, and I will bless her family. Too often people blame every bad
thing that happens on Satan. If Rachel’s death were Satan’s will, My name would
never have been brought up before she died. Satan has no power over My people if
I don’t allow him to.
“Each life has a special purpose in this world. That is why I use some people in
special ways. So, don’t think that because someone is a faithful Christian that
they will live long and perfect lives on earth. If I have to take one life in
order to save another, I will do so.
“As I said before, I will have to take many lives before I return. Among them
will be many Christians. Salvation is that important to Me. But always remember
that I never want to see anyone perish.”
REBUKED
The pastor grabbed my arm and took me back to my seat. I began to cry, because I
knew he was hurting my Lord, but I was not ashamed or angry about what he did to
me. Nonetheless, I felt very bad for my pastor, because it was the enemy that
did it to him.
The dance I do during times of worship is not an ordinary dance. Because the
Lord had worked with my body and hands for so many months, great power was built
up within me, and the Lord directed each and every movement of my dancing. When
I dance, I don’t move my own hands, but the Holy Spirit moves them for me. I
never try to stop my hands on my own; I let the Holy Spirit stop them.
Each step and movement is executed seven times, and I could never make these
moves on my own. The Holy Spirit guides each part. It is for this reason that I
go to church at least thirty minutes before worship begins, and I also pray two
hours or more before I go to church, by the Lord’s direction.
Then, every Monday the Lord takes me to the beach in my transformed body, and
after we talk I kneel before Him. Following this, I dance before Him with a
heavenly song; it is the same dance that He requires of me during church
services.
Dancing, therefore, has become very important to the Lord, and I know it is part
of the ministry He has given. There is so much power in my body, and after the
dance, I have no strength and I can hardly stand.
After I was rebuked, I went home and talked with the Lord. I learned that He was
very unhappy with my pastor. He said: “He didn’t believe you because the devil
got to him. He quenched My Holy Spirit. You must never return to that church.”
For almost one month I had been dancing in front of the church, and the Lord had
planned many blessings for that church. The devil ruined it.
“Only about 20 percent of churches are putting Me first; the rest of them are
worrying about what people say and how much money they will have. Many churches
are not concerned about reaching out to lost souls at all. That is the most
important thing to Me.
“I must tell you, daughter, that many pastors will go into the valleys I showed
you, then their congregations will follow. Any pastor who mistreats My special
anointed servants and My prophets will not be blessed. But someone with a
special blessing from Me can bring blessing to an entire church. You must put
all this in your book, Choo Nam.”
I begged the Lord not to require this of me, because I was worried about the
effect it would have on the pastor, but the Lord reminded me that I needed to
obey Him at all times. He pointed out that He wants other churches to know these
things as well.
The pastor is a very anointed and loving person, but he doubted me because Satan
came between him and me. We had been attending that church for more than four
years, and had missed only one Sunday service because of a heavy snowfall.
My ministry at the church had been in the form of intercessory prayer, and my
husband contributed a great deal of work to the building program. Roger was also
the head usher, and we truly loved the pastor and church very much, but one
day’s experience changed everything.
A NEW BEGINNING
On May 16, 1999, I knew I could never go back to the first church again, and I
believed the Lord would lead us to another church. My mind began to think about
Bethel, and during the prayer before dinner, the Lord whispered, “Bethel.”
That confirmed it, and my heart began to desire to go there for worship. That
night we attended services at Bethel, and I experienced a warm and wonderful
anointing. In fact, the anointing was so intense that my dress was soaked with
perspiration.
On May 23, we attended the Sunday service at Bethel, but we had misunderstood
the time of the service. We were thirty minutes late for worship, but the minute
I sat down, the intense anointing of God’s Holy Spirit was all over me once
more. Indeed, it was uncontrollable, even though I had missed the opportunity to
pray and dance before the service. To the Lord, that half hour of praying in
tongues before worship is extremely important.
On May 30, 1999, we attended Bethel again, and this time I danced freely during
the worship service. While I was dancing at our old church, I had felt quite
uncomfortable.
The Lord had explained to me that there had been a great deal of bickering about
my dancing in front of the worship team at the old church. I’m sure my
discomfort had come from the Holy Spirit on those occasions. The Lord reminded
me: “Any church that doesn’t let the Holy Spirit move the church body freely
cannot be blessed. I plan to pour out a much stronger anointing upon the church
before I return, and the churches had better be prepared for it.”
The Lord told me that He would talk to me after the worship service about some
very important things. He told me to talk to the writer about the book. He asked
me to send out the manuscript for the body-work and to make a list of all the
heavenly visions He has given to me over the past three years of training.
Though I had often mentioned the book to the Lord, He always told me that He
would take care of it in His time and that I should not be concerned about it.
The Lord was giving me some release about the book, and I was very excited.
He also told me to give a list of my heavenly visions and to share my spiritual
experiences with our new pastor, Pastor Wolfson.
After three and a half years with the Lord, I realize that my thoughts and
actions are no longer my own. My entire life belongs to God. My thinking, my
feelings and my behaviors all have changed. I have so much compassion for lost
and needy souls, and my heart aches for anyone who does not know the Lord.
Now I know that when I please my Lord and always put Him first, everything in my
life will work out. My wonderful Lord has transformed me inside out, and He has
taught me many amazing things about His ways. No one can make me angry any
longer because the Lord’s great love in my life enables me to forgive him or
her.
“I will love thee, O LORD, my strength. The LORD
is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I
will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. I will
call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine
enemies” (Psalms
18:1-3, KJV).
PART
THREE
Three Years of
Ministry Training
Chapter 22
The Time Is Short
And
the Lord God of the holy prophets
sent His angel to show His servants
the things which must shortly take place.
--Revelation
22:6 (emphasis added)
ON AUGUST 11, 1999, after my bedtime prayer, a very special anointing came with
the Lord’s presence, and it turned out to be a beautiful heavenly song with
wonderful words.
Then the Lord said, “Choo Nam, I have a surprise for you.” The minute He said
this, my vision-voice came, and I beheld the Lord’s presence. He was wearing the
golden gown and crown as He stood before me.
My body became much stronger, and a sense of amazing power came over me. The
Lord directed me to stretch my hands toward Him, and as I did so my hands moved
toward Him under His power. I saw He was holding a huge gold key. Then He said,
“I am giving you this gold key for your miracle work.”
When He put the key in my hand, my body jumped and shook. I was breathless as a
result of the anointing, and I started crying. Then my hand closed. Both of my
hands joined together and returned to my chest for a while. Next, my hands shook
uncontrollably for several minutes.
The Lord changed into His regular gown and then told me that every one of His
promises was being released. He said: “The key I gave you was the last one. You
are surprised by the world, and you are my very blessed child.”
Before bedtime, on December 8, 1999, after I had finished praying, the Lord
began talking to me. He usually talks about my work and His plans for me, and
how soon He’ll start the work He has prepared me for; but tonight He was letting
me know why He has to publish the book soon. He said, “Heaven Is So Real will be
the last chance for people to realize how soon I am coming for My people.”
He also said, “If the disobedient people don’t wake up, they will not hear the
trumpet sound, and they will have to go through the tribulation.” He then went
on to explain that He has been warning people through events related to school
children, but that we have only feared Him for a short time before going back to
our old ways.
He continued: “I have been giving them many signs to bring prayer back into the
schools, but people are not really trying to do it. I will never force anyone’s
mind. I can only give them signs so they will know what I want them to do.
“I have given enough warning for people to know what I want them to do for so
long. I cannot wait forever for those who don’t want to be ready for Me. I am
coming for those who are ready for Me, and this will happen sooner then they
expect.”
The Lord said I must put these words in the book.
INDESCRIBABLE JOY
In the very instant when He said this, the heavenly songs came forth, and I
began to dance before Him. This continued for at least thirty minutes. During
this entire time I was dancing and singing. The anointing was so strong that all
I could think about was that I wanted Him to take me home at that very moment. I
was crying, but I also was smiling at my Lord, because the joy was
indescribable.
THE LORD AWAITS THOSE READY FOR HIM
On
AN ANOINTING OF POWER
At the end of the prayer time, the Lord told me to get up at 5 A.M. on Sunday
and to praise the Father first. He wanted me then to pray for all His promises,
in tongues, and for my ministry, then to go to church before 9:30 and start to
pray. He told me that I could go to church early, but not later than 9:30 A.M.
He also told me not to allow myself to be interrupted by anyone.
“When you begin to pray, do not do anything on your own until you complete the
dance,” He directed. “You should know all the procedures about this dance.”
The minute I walked into the sanctuary on January 9, I felt as if I were on
fire, and I began to cry before I started to pray. I gave praise to the Father,
and as I began to pray, I saw the Lord’s presence. He was dressed in His golden
gown and crown, and He was standing on the pulpit, smiling at me.
He said simply, “I am opening the door for your miracle-work ministry.”
I began dancing before the congregation. I danced only four times at the morning
services in this church during the early days when I first began attending. As
time went on, however, I began to dance at the evening service every Friday
while they were having a revival at Bethel. I continued to do this until they
moved to the new church, Church for All Nations. There, I didn’t do the miracle
dance for almost two months.
NO TIME TO WAIT
He also reminded me that He has given people every chance to come to know Him,
and He has shown many signs to people in an effort to help them to realize He is
God. He went on: “But people do not fear Me, and many of those who know My words
don’t believe Me enough to live according to My commandments. But I will give
them another chance through your book and many other signs.”
After He spoke these words, so strong a power came upon me that my eyes closed
very tightly and a very loud voice came forth from my innermost being. It was so
loud that it could be heard throughout the whole house, and this caused me to
cry.
The Lord then showed me His vision for the earth very quickly. I saw many tall
buildings falling throughout the whole world. After this, dark clouds, wind and
lightning spread around the whole earth followed by rain, floods and tornadoes
everywhere. After this, He said, “Read
Isaiah 64:3.” This prophetic passage talks about the mountains quaking at
the Lord’s presence.
Then the Lord said, “I am warning my people one more time that I am coming for
them sooner than they expect.” He went on to explain: “Whoever is ready for Me
will hear the trumpet sound, and those who are not ready for Me will go through
the tribulation, and many of them will become Satan’s. I have given enough
chances for people to prepare for My coming, but they don’t pay attention to My
words. I will not wait for them forever. I am coming for those who are ready for
Me.”
The Lord repeats many things. He wants so much for people to get ready for His
coming.
Chapter
23
A
Miracle-Work Ministry
[He] was transfigured before them.
His face shone like the sun, and His clothes
became as white as the light.
--Matthew
17:2
ON THE MORNING of
I saw the Lord appear in His golden gown and crown. The minute I beheld His
presence, my voice became louder, and I began to cry while I trembled in
humility before Him. At the same time I was also experiencing unspeakable joy.
I had seen Him in His golden gown before, but the anointing that accompanies
this vision was much stronger than ever before. The Lord told me that all His
promises were being released for the final miracle-work ministry He has prepared
for me.
The Lord has often repeated things to me. I’m sure this has been His way of
making sure I understand and remember the important things He has in store for
me. However, you can see how many disappointments I had to go through.
Next, the Lord directed me to put out my hands toward Him. I did so immediately.
Then He raised His right hand and said, “I release your work.” After this, He
instantly stood before me in His white gown, and He explained to me that the day
I began to dance, my ministry was released to the church. During each dance the
Lord’s presence is with me. Miracles abound wherever the Lord’s presence is.
Several people have told me that they feel a special anointing when I dance.
These are Spirit-filled people who know how to discern the work and presence of
the Lord. So many people have told me how they appreciate my dancing in the
Spirit, and some have experienced the Lord’s miracle-working power as I dance
before Him.
MORE PREPARATION FOR MINISTRY
I feel as if He gives me a wake-up call every day. Each time when I do things
wrongly or say ungodly things unknowingly, the Lord lets me know right away so I
won’t do them again. I know I can never learn enough from Him, but I am trying
my very best to learn all I can and to follow Him in all His ways.
If I cannot talk about my Lord or read His words, I am very unhappy. It seems as
if many people do not want to be around me unless they are like me. Even many
Spirit-filled Christians don’t want to talk about Jesus all the time. For me,
however, He is always first, every waking moment. Even when I go shopping I tell
people about Jesus.
I never feel lonely or need anyone’s company, because there is so much I enjoy
about my Lord each day. His words are sweeter than honey to me. If I spend half
a day with someone without God being the center of our conversation, I feel I
have wasted my time. I feel a strong sense of urgency related to everything
about God, because I know His coming for us is so near
Sometimes the power of His anointing on my hands and arms is so strong that I
feel as if my hands are actually breaking apart. One Sunday morning my hand
touched my eyes thirty-six times, and before each of these touches, my hands
made seven different strange movements.
Every Sunday morning I have to pray, spending at least two hours with the Lord,
before I go to church. Then I am ready for the miracle dance. I never watch the
time, but He always releases me on time so I will be ready for church. Our Lord
knows everything about us, and He promises to supply all of our needs (see
Phil. 4:19).
Sometimes my body becomes so weak while I am in the Lord’s presence that I drop
on the floor before Him. When this happens, I always praise the Father and
humble myself before Him. It’s only after I conclude this time of prayer with
“In Jesus’ name” that I am able to lift my face up.
Every Sunday morning I cry so much in the Lord’s presence. This usually happens
while I am praying in the sanctuary thirty minutes before worship begins. My
tears enable me to humble myself before Him as I thank Him and express my love
to Him.
During each of my thirty-minute prayer sessions before the miracle dance, I
behold the Lord’s presence either in the pulpit or at the altar. He always talks
to me for approximately ten minutes before the dance. That is why I always cry,
and sometimes I even laugh.
Fasting was never a part of my Christian life until I began to receive
revelations of heaven. At one point during this period I wanted to fast for
three days, but on the second day my body became so weak that I could hardly
walk, so the Lord told me to stop.
He said, “You don’t have to fast to show Me how you appreciate My blessings in
your life, for I already know your heart.” Even so, I still wanted to fast every
Sunday for the Lord, just to show Him I respect and honor Him for what He has
done for us. And I wanted to sacrifice something for Him, so I told my husband
about it.
I wanted to fast from Saturday after dinner to Sunday dinner. This would be a
full twenty-four hours of fasting for every week. Roger indicated that he wanted
to participate in fasting with me, so we have been fasting this way since.
During these fasts I drink only water, and Roger drinks coffee.
We are striving to make each Sunday truly the Lord’s day from morning until
bedtime. The Lord told me that after He starts my ministry, we must stop
fasting. He said, “You will need strength to serve Me.” He always knows what is
best for us. I only know how important it is for us to spend every minute of our
time with the Lord on Sundays, instead of going shopping and eating out and
being surrounded with ungodly people on the Lord’s day. If we have a chance to
preach the gospel, however, it is a different story.
MY HEALING
It was during this time that I asked the Lord to heal my physical problems, and
He slowly did so. As I look back on that time now, I can see how I was sinning,
with or without knowing it, so He couldn’t heal me quickly. Now I fully realize
that, in many cases, sin brings sickness.
I have been a Christian since March 1992. I’ve gone to the doctor only about two
or three times since then (for physical checkups), but I have gone to the
dentist many times. When I realized the Lord Jesus took thirty-nine stripes for
our healing, I submitted every one of my sicknesses to Him.
I do have pains sometimes, but He always heals me. Sometimes the Lord heals me
instantly; sometimes it takes time. Whatever the case, I’ve learned that nothing
is impossible for our Lord. I am totally dependent on Him, because I know He
will take care of me.
One time, about five years ago, I suffered from a severe sore throat. I had
never had such a painful sore throat before. For two nights I couldn’t sleep
because of the pain, but I didn’t have a desire to take medicine or to see the
doctor. Every swallow was incredibly painful.
With each pain I thought about the stripes Jesus had to endure for me, and I
cried for Him so much, fully realizing that my pain could not compare with what
He had to go through for me. In comparison, my pain was nothing. I feel that I
was crucified with Him. Since that wonderful revelation and healing experience,
if I catch a cold, it doesn’t last for more than one or two days, whereas such
conditions used to last a week or a month.
I know I have many gifts from my Lord God, but until now I haven’t had an
opportunity to minister to others, except through witnessing and praying.
However, I know I have healing gifts, because each time I have pain somewhere in
my body, I simply put my hands on that particular place for healing.
When I do this, instantly the heat comes on my body, and my physical being
becomes very anointed and shakes powerfully. Sometimes I am healed
instantaneously, and sometimes it takes longer.
When the Lord doesn’t heal me instantaneously, I keep on beseeching Him for
healing until He brings it to pass. The Lord told me, “Persistent prayer is
answered because those who believe actually expect to be healed by Me, so they
continually ask until they receive.”
He also told me, “Impatient prayer never will receive anything from Me.” Those
who don’t know enough of God’s words cannot have faith or patience to receive
all His promises. When you don’t know God’s words and His promises, you will not
have a desire to pray.
GOD HEARS
One such occasion took place when one of my wisdom teeth was bothering me for a
while. The Lord didn’t heal this condition for a long time, so I asked Him why.
He simply directed me to have it pulled.
I obeyed, and went to the dentist immediately. The dentist took an x-ray, and he
pulled it right then. There’s nothing impossible for God, but sometimes God
chooses not to heal us.
It’s important for us to hear and know the voice of God in these situations.
Sometimes, however, it is very hard to understand what the Lord wants you to do.
Always pray about it first and ask Him what you should do. Then no matter what
decision comes to your heart, if you have peace about it, it is of God.
Always remember that God is peace. If it is Satan’s decision, your mind will be
very confused. Always ask the Lord when you want something or need something. He
is very happy to help those who trust Him. Our Lord God wants all His children
to depend totally on Him. If you continually ask for whatever you need or want,
sooner or later you will hear His voice, because you are depending on Him. That
is why persistent prayer always will be answered.
Some people think that because they can’t hear God’s voice, He isn’t hearing or
will not answer their prayer. At the beginning of my Christian walk, I didn’t
know how to pray and I never heard His voice, but I was very persistent in
prayer and I believed I would receive what I requested from Him.
During the last two years, almost all of my prayers have been answered. Now the
Lord and I talk all the time, everywhere, but it seems that some prayers take a
very long time to be answered. I believe God will answer the prayers of saved
people first if they are obedient and their hearts are clean and close to Him.
When I first became a Christian, even though I didn’t know how to pray, I prayed
many times a day. I asked the same things over and over like a child. I needed
so many things then. About two months later, the Lord began to answer my
prayers, one by one.
As a result, I began to fear God in a reverential way and humble myself before
Him. I learned to pray more often and began to read the Bible, even though I
couldn’t understand much of it. I began to make a habit of reading the Word and
praying many times each day.
The Lord continually blessed us more and more. The more He blessed me, however,
the more I feared Him. I couldn’t knowingly do anything against His will. This
realization and commitment led me to give up the worldly things that I had once
greatly enjoyed, especially the television soap operas that had been my daily
life. Once I made up my mind about this, I never wanted to see them again.
In a similar vein, I couldn’t be happy with anyone if God’s Word wasn’t in him
or her. All worldly desires began to die very quickly. I have learned that the
Lord will never force us to do anything, but when we want to serve Him and give
up the worldly things, then He will step in and remove our worldly desires and
put godly desires into us so we can walk in full obedience in Him. Total
obedience from His children is a great blessing to God.
Chapter
24
Obedience That Blesses God
You
are My friends if you do
whatever I command you.
--John 15:14
(emphasis added)
THE
LORD DIDN’T allow me to do any church work or anything else during my training
years. He was continually telling me to focus on Him in preparation for my work
and to keep on praying for His promises to be fulfilled. The presence of the
Holy Spirit began to fill me, anoint me and surround me as I danced before the
Lord.
He will not allow my hands to touch anybody’s body to pray at such times of
great anointing. Even if when I’ve tried to touch others, my hand would not do
so. When I am anointed to dance, no one is permitted to touch my hands or body.
I actually long to put my hands on other people’s bodies in order to pray for
them. For now, however, when I pray for sick people, it is from a distance.
During such times of intercession, the anointing comes upon my body and I shake.
It is as if my own body has become a substitute for the ill body of the person
I’m praying for. When this happens, I see the Lord’s presence with that person.
This happens especially with children.
I believe the reason for this is that the Lord wants my hands to remain pure so
the Holy Spirit can dance with my hands. That is why, at the beginning of the
body-work described in the second part of this book, the Lord told me, “When you
begin to dance, your hands can never touch other hands or bodies to pray.”
My personality completely changed after the revelations of heaven I was
privileged to experience. All my thinking has changed. Whatever I used to want
means nothing to me anymore.
THE LOVE OF GOD
The Lord has given me so much of His love for others that I had never really
experienced before, except for the love I had for my own family. Now I have so
much love for people, especially the little ones. Each time I see them I smile
for them and I want to touch them. I know this is Jesus’ love within me, for He
loves the little children.
Now I also want to hug and touch others, even strangers. This is one thing I
never wanted to do before. Similarly, my desire to preach the gospel of Jesus
Christ is uncontrollable. It seems that I just cannot help myself.
Before I saw heaven, I always had a desire to preach, because I wanted to make
my Lord happy and I wanted to go to heaven. My motives for wanting to preach
have changed now, because I know where I am going.
I have so much compassion for lost souls. In fact, that is an all-consuming
passion in my life. I used to have so much compassion for handicapped people I
saw in church. Now I never feel sorry for them anymore. I realize they love
Jesus more than healthy people do.
I believe the Lord has put a great burden in my heart for lost souls. That is
why He showed me my parents and the other people in hell. I still cry for my
mother.
Before I knew my Lord Jesus, I always thought I wanted to be with my mother
after death. At that time I thought we would all go to the same place when we
die. I never knew there is a heaven and a hell. Now I know how real they both
are. They are as real as the planet Earth.
I am very thankful that the Lord has given special patience to my husband,
Roger. Roger’s patience with me for all these years, as he has walked with me in
the Lord, has been a tremendous source of encouragement to me.
My husband never complained about anything I wanted to do for my Lord. In fact,
he never disagrees with me about anything related to my spiritual life. He fears
the Lord and loves Him more than life itself.
The Lord keeps my husband very busy with his job. Therefore, I strive to take
good care of him in the way the Lord wants a wife to care for her husband. I